LOL, So I Called Myself Getting Annoyed With God The Other Day… Right.

I’ve been walking around for these past few weeks with my iPhone permanently attached to my hand. I sent a few pitches out to some editors in hopes of expanding my portfolio as well as my resume and as a result I am now playing the wait game. Waiting to see whether or not I’ll receive a response. My pitches will either a) be accepted b) be rejected, or c) be snubbed and receive neither a yes or no.

My career is currently what feels like an adolescent phase. You know that very awkward phase where you are no longer a child, but not yet a teen? That’s where my career is right now. I’ve been blessed over the years with the opportunity to get much experience in my field prior to even graduating college. Yet, here I am now fresh out of undergrad and new to grad school feeling as if I am trapped in the adolescence of my professional life. I’ve always been a grab life by the horns kind of girl and patience has never been my strong suit, so you can probably understand how frustrating playing the wait game and having a few doors closed in my face can be. I had my dream job almost handed to me and then snatched back and given to the company intern (for loyalty reasons I suppose). And here I am a couple of weeks shy of my twenty-second birthday antsy for my career to finally take off the way in which God promised me that it would back in my early teens.

The other night before bed as got ready to say my prayers and give God my whole woe is me spiel, I felt overcome with conviction. I immediately had to repent and tell God my bad. I had been so ungrateful lately. There I was mulling over what I didn’t have yet instead of thanking God for what he had already blessed me with. At twenty-one years old I have a steady writing gig with one of the major outlets for entertainment and news for African-American women. After having a talk with God I felt foolish for feeling as if he had forsaken me. I realize that things will occur in God’s timing and not when I feel that they should happen. What is considered blessing can be a curse if given to you prematurely and before you are able to handle it. This reminded me of my very first memory verse that I was given in a class that I had taken at church years and years ago,

Humble yourself under the mighty hand of God and he will exalt you in due season 1Peter 5:6

This means that I should continue to serve God and be thankful as well as a steward for what He’s already done without worrying about my “next big break”. Proverbs 16:3 promises that if you commit your actions to the Lord your plans will succeed. This tells me that as long as I work hard and lead a life submitted to God, without compromise I have nothing to worry about. I’m sure that the temptation to stress will arise again, but at least I have the promises of God to rest on.

Have you ever found yourself becoming frustrated with God?

Jazmine Denise is a New York City based Lifestyle & Relationship writer. Follow her on Twitter @jazminedenise

2 Responses to “LOL, So I Called Myself Getting Annoyed With God The Other Day… Right.”
  1. Joy says:

    Yes I have definitely felt a little frustrated with God at times. I can really relate to your story. I lost my full time position as a school counselor over a year and a half ago due to budget cuts and have since been asking God to show me my purpose or at least help me land another full time position. I’ve seen so many doors shut and at times questioned God’s leading. But throughout this process I’ve seen God’s hand on my life. He has provided for me EVERY step of the way and for that I am thankful. I agree with you, “continue to serve God and be thankful.” I am trying to maintain a spirit of thanksgiving. There are just soooo many things I am thankful for. I could go on and on. Another scripture that also gives me encouragement is Matt. 6:30-34. It starts of by saying “God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith….But your heavenly father already knows all your needs.” God has already made provisions for his children so at the end of the day there is no need to worry. Thanks again for your post it was very inspiring.

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